Confused

I dont know why I am so confused. sometimes I think I should go for option A, sometimes I option B and sometimes I think of a completely another option a new created one- option C . And now there are times, when I dont want to go for anything....just sit back and relax- listen to music, just let it be. Let the things be as it is! No changes! As of now i am feeling motivated enough to describe about the various options going inside my head. Maybe i should stop over-thinking! then probably I will be able to focus on something and achieve something.

Waiting for this wait to end

Its exactly 12 weeks left for that day. Means 3 months. Yeah i know its a lo g time but its the day when he is coming . my life partner..my life. Yes he is my life! We stay in different cities. Lot of people would say Its difficult to have a long distance relation. Yes it is. No doubt. But not impossible and its your love for each other which binds you both. I would not say we don't have fights. We have lots. We have misunderstandings. Many times because of both of our "extra" busy schedule we dont get time to talk even. But that doesnot mean that love have been lost or m not missing him..bla bla bla...i know he loves me a lot,more than anythng in the world. And me. My life is incomplete without him. Many times we forget to express our loves to our partners but that does not mean things have changed. Its all how you take it. It all depends on your attitude. Trust,love mutual understanding - these are not just mere words. They kinda build your relation. I know sometimes i get irritated... I get rude...i even forget..but thats only because i love you lot. I care for you. And i miss you. Sometimes i get annoying and get angry easily.. You have tolerated all those. And I know you will continue doing that. That's our love. And some arguments are also needed to have that spark in your relation. A little fight and then patch-up - shows that we still care. Shows that love is there to bring us back forgetting the differences. So after 12 weeks from now he ll be coming here for few days. I have started counting ever since i came to know. Eagerly waiting for him to come. Started planning a lot of things already. Dont know how much of them will actually turn into reality. I just hope everythng  goes well. Its that part of the year where i ll feel like i dont need anything now. I wish that time can stop there when i am with him. I dont know what magic is this. Jo bhi hai bhot khubsurat hai. Last tym when he came my inner self was jumping with joy. I know still quite a number of days are left but missing him badly. Feeling excited already as i have started planning in my mind. Eagerly waiting for this wait to end. :) 

Moving On

How can God be so unfair to someone that too to nice persons? Well its not about me.. But about one of my dear friend. She is going through a realy bad phase of her life.. She had a break up and everyone knows what follows after that. It actually depends on person's nature. Some person can recover quickly they are strong.. But there are others who feel completly devastated! I pray that god gives her the strength to recover.
Heart breaks are really devastating. In such a situation you need the support and care of your friends. One has to be really strong to move on. But moving on is realy essential. You cannot stay at that moment forever. Just like they say every night has a day, just have faith in God and yourself, be sincere and honest even if others are not,everything will fall into place.

longiness

I am missing him . why does he behave like this sometimes. The whole day went away like that. We couldnt talk. Earlier offce and then when i called him in the evening it was busy. Then he did call me up later but i couldnt receive it either but he could have texted at least. Replied to my msgs...and then again he got busy with some work at night! Where s time for me? As it is hardly we get time to talk these days. About haf n hour in a day... Dats it!! That too gets lost sometimes...i mean is that thing/ work realy that important? I know its good to aim high.. He is doing all the hard work..he likes his work...he loves going it. I know. He is very passionate about it. Good that he is into thar profession..he is pursuing the career which interests him. But am i not that important! Maybbe i dont provide him that happiness....which he gets from his work.. Maybe dats the diff betweena guy and a girl...

being happy

One more week gone, but this it was fairky good.. Interestingly i wasnt waiting for friday to come which usually i start doing on tuesdays :) . i read few days back that if you search happiness from your work or expect that you wont feel happy. You should be happily doing your work then onlu you can stay happy. So i think i am getting to that point and i added a little more to it.. If not possible...start by pretending to be happy...then you ll gradually start feeling "it" so thats my mantra :) :) 

importance

One more day passed by. Sometimes I realy wonder, m i realy living life. Same old monotonous routine. To get up and go to work which i still havent started liking... Even after 1 year.. Well it can be said i still have not understood the harsh reality of life. My inner soul still wants to go back to that college phase! God knows when this thing will get into me! Probably actualy its about importance. All throught my life i have been treated like m very special..whther in school..home..even in my college..my lovely friends and my mr.charming! Always there for me..Now all those things are lost... Now its only you..no one is damned care about you. One has to find his own way,,alone...! I know the problem is within me.. I need to understand these things...but sadly m still not able to..

first blog

I have been planning this since so many days.. writing blogs..! So finally. !
Important is why do I want to write blogs. Its only because I need a means to just vent out my thoughts. There are so many situations where so much is going inside my mind, but unfortunately i cant speak about them to any one. Its not that I am lonely, I have a wonderful family. who loves me a lot. and can do anything just to see me happy. Also I am thankful to God that I have met my soulmate. He is not only my lover/ boyfriend, he is my best friend, with whom I can share everything. I wish we always remain together like this.But in spite of this, sometimes I feel like I have not been heard.